Shredded Document

Super cool!!

Lots of little synchronicities lately, it feels good. I'm reading an awesome book called "The Nature of Personal Reality" by Jane Roberts (who chanels Seth for this book). A lot of the stuff I'm reading is popping up in my own experience which validates much of the information (but really you'll always validate information you've come across if you believe it to be true).

I'm at my office right now and had a client come in saying his documents were taken when they shouldn't have. This transaction was last Thursday, so almost 5 days ago. I told him that we may have put it in the shredding bin and most likely would have been taken away, but I could take a look for him. Instantly my mind raced and tried to make me believe I couldn't find it ... that it was impossible, it's been 5 days with SO much paperwork in between, and it would take something like an hour to sift through all the old paper in the recycling bin -- and worse is the fact that it probably wasn't even IN the shredding bin as it would have been "batched" and put in a box at the back. I told him I'd look anyway.

I sent out the intention of finding this man's document. I switched off my brain and started digging. I "figured", or "sensed" that this would be in the middle of the pile in the shredding bin, so I took out a whole bunch of stuff, placed it on the table (as it fell in all directions and looked very overwhelming) and then started looking at the names on each document. I quickly thought "How in the world am I going to find this man's document?!! I could be here for hours, it's impossible!" but I just as quickly caught myself and put it away. Instead I replaced it with "This document will pop up within the next couple I pick up". Sure enough, I was bewildered when I held in my hands my customer's document. Not only was it supposed to have been shredded, but we should have taken this and stapled it to the document in the locked up room to keep for reference. Miraculously, the agent who handled it before had forgotten and just tossed it in the recycling bin.

I don't know if I'm explaining it properly, if you can understand how big of a feat this was, but I was so proud of myself. I was proud that I was able to trust myself and in return was able to see the physical manifestation of such trust.

So folks -- trust. Believe. Understand that whatever manifests inside of you manifests instantly outside of you, no matter how subtle this result.

I love pep talks, I love encouragement and cool focus groups -- lots of things that help you get going on something you've been meaning to do for a long time. Unfortunately a little bit too big of a push will actually get me in the wrong direction. Someone nagging at me to finish something or to "get my butt in gear" probably won't do much, in fact it will do the opposite. I'm too stubborn to do what people TELL me to do. And really, most people are like this (take kids for example, they won't eat vegetables if you try and shove them down their throat).

Needless to say after that whole shpiel I'm ready to take things into my own hands and actually do something with my life. I've procrastinated enough... success here I come.

Being more present has been taught wrong, in my opinion. There is a past and a future but in order to make them more meaningful and purposeful the present must have more substance. This would be done through taking more time to be conscious of our surroundings: stopping ourselves and realizing what affects us, and what we're affecting as well. Being more present would in turn let us remember the moments that pass us by and become our so-called "past". Why would I want to live if I can't remember the love I felt through an amazing experience I had moments, days, or years ago? On the other hand, how many times have you tried to think of what you ate earlier that day and couldn't even remember? That, my friends, is not paying enough attention to the very actions you're taking. So sad!

I do think I've got solutions to that though. Comin' up real quick.

Say it out loud and you'll call it to yourself. Try it, it works!

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"Why not?" ... A question so simple to forget. I find it's a much easier question to answer than "Why?"

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"... they had been brought together not of their own volition or by simple coincidence, but by some curious perversion of physics -- as if relationships between people were susceptible to the same laws that governed the relationships between atoms and molecules."

"Isn't it enough to see that a garden is beautiful without having to believe that there are fairies at the bottom of it too?"

-- The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy

The sick body -- hard one to figure out. I started getting sick last night and now I'm in a good amount of pain sitting here at work. I don't really need to feel a victim right now, which is one reason why I believe the body gets sick like this. Another reason would be needing to get rid of built up inner tension or emotion. I've been pretty stress free lately other than some deadlines but I think I've got them under control. So why am I sick today? Why is my body aching all over and my brain so foggy I can't simmer down thought patterns? I've got a very important trip coming up next weekend and I want to be in top shape for it.

These days feel like tests, too. Through pain one can experience epiphanies and new ways of looking at the world. Otherwise if everything was easy we wouldn't try to find new ways of seeing things. But what is it that I'm supposed to figure out? Heeeelllpppp!

Do you also notice that when you don't have any technology around you, time goes by much slower?


Why do we fret about being somewhere else? Right now I just thought of how my parents were still having coffee at this wonderful little coffee shop in my neighborhood. I joined them but very briefly, having to leave them 15 minutes in to rush to work. But why would I even bother thinking about how great it is there instead of here? I should just focus on where I am right now, and find the beautiful things surrounding me. We think too much of what COULD be, instead of what IS. Take a moment and find all the things you enjoy about where you are right now.

Our eyes are open all day long. But what do we actually see? I believe we only see around 10 or 20% of what's actually in front of us. No wonder accidents happen all the time -- carelessness, sure, but I think it's mostly because we just don't take the time to truly see the things that are in front of us. And I don't even mean tiny details. Big things! I was waiting at the bus stop the other day and noticed how much my mind was wandering. When I noticed that, I felt so inward. I consciously shifted my awareness outside of myself and automatically was blown away by how much MORE I saw in front of me. Sure, I saw stuff when all I was doing was thinking, but not in the same way. It was hazy and borderless, unlike when I payed attention to the total picture that stood before me. I'm sitting on a bench! Cyclists are going b y, someone dropped a cigarette butt, there are kids running around and people who are impatiently waiting beside me. All you have to do is ask yourself what you were just surrounded by and you'll notice that you can't really describe it. Why don't we pay more attention? Perhaps paying more attention would lead to greater awareness of ourselves through our surroundings?

Just a thought.