in this very moment my insides are twisted and turned about what to create, or maybe rather how to create. how to sit myself down and start producing, for no one but myself, for pleasure, for pure learning and joy. I don’t remember what it feels like actually, so no wonder it’s so difficult to start. the highlight of my day lately has been getting dressed: putting together an outfit that feels artistic.
I think that maybe
I will be a little surer
Of being a little nearer.
That's all. Eternity
Is in the understanding
That the little is more than enough
R.S. Thomas
I had a really big feeling this morning of wanting to find work that involves many people, helping people, getting up to meet people. people people people. people are what I get up for, much more than art. but maybe I could change that? maybe once I do something artistic I can really get into my own flow, like when I went to the studio and painted oranges. … all I could think about was painting those oranges.
