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Sunday, November 19, 2017

Slow and Steady

Slow and Steady
by Lydia Beauregard
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On this slow and steady Sunday
I awaken and see the sky is grey;
I roll over and place my arms around you.

You slowly, steadily come to life,
Feel my arm around you,
and turn over to look at me; I see you.

Soon we are wrapped up in each other,
touching, twirling, syncing, dancing,
Feeling our slow and steady body rhythms.

I get up real slow, make coffee as usual,
You make a fire, steady in your routine,
And we come together to enjoy a simple feast.

We separate, but stay close,
While we slowly and steadily start productivity,
Although others might not consider us productive.

I see a beautiful eulogy for a friend; I cry,
Reminding me of how quickly, how suddenly,
The subtlety of our lives can be taken away.

I am grateful for you and I, for these moments,
Knowing that the quick and the sudden
Make our slow and steady so important.


Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Shame and guilt

There is a difference between shame and guilt.

Shame: the fear of disconnection. Am I worthy of connection?

You're never good enough.
Who do you think you are?
- Shame

Shame is a focus on self, guilt is a focus on behavior.
Shame is "I am bad". Guilt is "I did something bad"
I'm sorry I made a mistake. - Guilt
I'm sorry. I am a mistake. - Shame

The ability to hold something we've done or failed to do up against who we want to be is incredibly adaptive. It's uncomfortable but it's adaptive.

Brenee Brown on Shame, Guilt, Vulnerability

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Choice

So this is what life is like
a life that you take hold of
that you make choices in
that you decide
yes
or
no

So this is what life is like
when you shut one door
to fully open another
to finally decide
yes
or
no

You'll never be done
saying
yes
or
no

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Circle round

It's only been a week and it feels like an eternity.
Time goes round and round until we wait no longer for its infinity.
We circle around, circle back in time,
back far enough to see the back of our heads.
It's science they say,
it's the way the universe works.

Friday, August 18, 2017

Near You Always

Please don't say I love you,
Those words touch me much too deeply.
They make my core tremble.
Don't think you realize the effect you have over me.
And please don't look at me like that,
It just makes me want to make you near me always.
And please don't kiss me so sweet.
It makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow.
And please don't touch me like that.
Makes every other embrace seem pale and' shallow.
And please don't come so close.
It just makes me want to make you near me always.
Please don't bring me flowers,
They only whisper the sweet things you say.
And don't try to understand me,
Your hands already know too much anyways.
Makes me want to make you near me always.
And when you look in my eyes,
Please know my heart is in your hands.
It's nothing that I understand,
But in your arms you have complete power over me.
So be gentle if you please.
'Cause your hands are in my hair,
But my heart is in your teeth babe,
And it makes me want to make you near me always,
Your hands are in my hair,
But my heart is in your teeth babe,
And it makes me want to make you near me always,
Want to be near you always.
Want to be near you always.
Want to be near you always.

- Jewel

Monday, August 14, 2017

Reference

I answer the questions as honestly as I can
Without knowing anything about the beginning, the middle or the end.
There is no point of reference
To begin to comprehend.

Bittersweet



Bittersweet.

Life's current descriptor.