Feel Alive!

Choose to be whomever you please; imaginary or real.

Monday, July 26, 2010


My mom's neighbors all suck. Or so she says. She's been experiencing difficulties her entire life when it comes to those living around her, and that's perhaps because of her strong sense of judgement that permeates a room no matter how badly she tries to keep her thoughts to herself. I told her that maybe, just maybe, all of this nonsense is caused by one entity only -- herself.
She looked at me strangely when I came up with this, but I told her to hear me out.
If a person can attract things to oneself, then that means we're constantly in total control of our surroundings. If all of her life, she expected to find herself surrounded by a gang of mobster neighbors, then she did. Never did she initially think, "Ah, we're moving into this new house, our neighbors are going to be lovely!" Quite the opposite, she always moved in expecting them to be a hassle. She was always scared of them, like rats swarming to infest her kitchen. This time though, she'd gotten it bad. All those years of expectations and materializing those thoughts and emotions, everyone around her was starting to go crazy on her. One of them wants to sue her, the other constantly calling the city to make sure she's following code during renovations. So, to fix this, I suggested simple mind work. "Expect them to be the most pleasant of people tomorrow. Imagine them smiling and waving, inviting you in for coffee, having a good old time. Know that you're open to having those kinds of people around you and that you want them there. The moment you let your brain know that it's possible to be surrounded in those kinds of circumstances, they'll pop up for you. Imagine that, tomorrow your neighbors have done a complete 360!" Impossible, she said. But I guess she took it seriously when I left and decided to implement this method into her life. I got a phone call when she got back from her camping trip, which was just 2 days after our discussion. "You'll never believe what happened," exclaimed my mother, "I got out of the car this afternoon and was greeted by THAT woman, you know, that crazy one? She waved, said hello, talked about the dog and how cute he was in the car, ..." she went on describing her bewilderment as she witnessed the Law of Attraction at its finest. The universe (which really, is simply a reflection of the way she puts out her feelings and emotions and thoughts) finally delivered the one thing she never thought she could have -- simply because now, she believed she could and made it happen.

Crazy story. True story. The kind of story that leaves you gasping for air because you wish you'd thought of doing it first. If it's that simple then why can't we all just have what we want? I'll let you answer that one.

Monday, July 19, 2010


A friend and I were talking about living your life to the fullest and actually doing something that is "worthwhile". When your time ends -- when everyone around you just finally moves on to the "next" -- what will we classify as a life well lived? Does that even exist? Our consciousness flows through this energy at this moment and builds our lives, but does it really matter how you move about? In the end, all you've done is change the way you're spending your energy ('cause you know, that's all we are). In the grand scheme of things, that energy has no positive or negative ways of being spent. All energy is exactly the same.

In conclusion, I suppose the only way you could classify a life well lived is if you felt happy doing what you were doing, whether experiencing ecstacy through a long hike through the mountains or taking the drug for a mind trip. Sitting on your couch and eating popcorn or going to live concerts, following trends and jumping on bandwagons.

You can be happy. If you want to be.

Thursday, July 8, 2010


"It is ignorance of yourself that makes you afraid and also unaware that you are afraid. Don't try not to be afraid. Break down the wall of ignorance first.

People are afraid to die, because they do not know what is death. The jnani has died before his death, he saw that there was nothing to be afraid of. The moment you know your real being, you are afraid of nothing. Death gives freedom and power. To be free in the world, you must die to the world. Then the universe is your own, it becomes your body, an expression and a tool. The happiness of being absolutely free is beyond description. On the other hand, he who is afraid of freedom cannot die." -- Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj

Tuesday, July 6, 2010


"The gods have a great sense of humor, don't they? If you lack the iron and the fizz to take control of your own life, if you insist on leaving your fate to the gods, then the gods will repay your weakness by having a grin or two at your expense. Should you fail to pilot your own ship, don't be surprised at what inappropriate port you find yourself docked." -- Tom Robbins

Sunday, July 4, 2010


Existance can be rearranged.


We seek improvement and growth inside ourselves through the things we create, build, and construct outside of ourselves. Now, is this a good thing or a bad thing? Will we ever be whole this way, or will we always be longing for more? Is there an end to this constant need to grow? Perhaps we should bask in contentment for a change.


"They fell asleep smiling. It is to erase the fixed smiles of sleeping couples that Satan trained roosters to crow at five in the morning." -- Tom Robbins

Loved this line in the book I'm reading.