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Saturday, May 21, 2011

The sick body -- hard one to figure out. I started getting sick last night and now I'm in a good amount of pain sitting here at work. I don't really need to feel a victim right now, which is one reason why I believe the body gets sick like this. Another reason would be needing to get rid of built up inner tension or emotion. I've been pretty stress free lately other than some deadlines but I think I've got them under control. So why am I sick today? Why is my body aching all over and my brain so foggy I can't simmer down thought patterns? I've got a very important trip coming up next weekend and I want to be in top shape for it.

These days feel like tests, too. Through pain one can experience epiphanies and new ways of looking at the world. Otherwise if everything was easy we wouldn't try to find new ways of seeing things. But what is it that I'm supposed to figure out? Heeeelllpppp!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Do you also notice that when you don't have any technology around you, time goes by much slower?


Why do we fret about being somewhere else? Right now I just thought of how my parents were still having coffee at this wonderful little coffee shop in my neighborhood. I joined them but very briefly, having to leave them 15 minutes in to rush to work. But why would I even bother thinking about how great it is there instead of here? I should just focus on where I am right now, and find the beautiful things surrounding me. We think too much of what COULD be, instead of what IS. Take a moment and find all the things you enjoy about where you are right now.
Our eyes are open all day long. But what do we actually see? I believe we only see around 10 or 20% of what's actually in front of us. No wonder accidents happen all the time -- carelessness, sure, but I think it's mostly because we just don't take the time to truly see the things that are in front of us. And I don't even mean tiny details. Big things! I was waiting at the bus stop the other day and noticed how much my mind was wandering. When I noticed that, I felt so inward. I consciously shifted my awareness outside of myself and automatically was blown away by how much MORE I saw in front of me. Sure, I saw stuff when all I was doing was thinking, but not in the same way. It was hazy and borderless, unlike when I payed attention to the total picture that stood before me. I'm sitting on a bench! Cyclists are going b y, someone dropped a cigarette butt, there are kids running around and people who are impatiently waiting beside me. All you have to do is ask yourself what you were just surrounded by and you'll notice that you can't really describe it. Why don't we pay more attention? Perhaps paying more attention would lead to greater awareness of ourselves through our surroundings?

Just a thought.