Thursday, October 8, 2020

The Object of my Affection

The feeling of love is just projected onto possibility. The feeling is manufactured from thoughts, and those thoughts aren't the person or the thing.

For example, if the thought of a certain person gives me butterflies, but when I see him next he somehow doesn't match my fantasy of him (my expectations of what love was going to look like or feel like), the gut sensations disappear. So the feelings weren't about him; he stayed the same. They were about the excitement of the potential of love, the projection of the feeling of love onto a human body. If they were about him, nothing he does could alter the love. That's what they must mean by "the object of my affection".

Can I have these love feelings - the butterflies, the giddy stomach and body jitters - for every thing in life that opens doors to opportunities and potential? can't everything, if seen as a gift of possibility, be completely loved? can I have those same body sensations with this awareness?