Feel Alive!

Choose to be whomever you please; imaginary or real.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

This morning the walk to the bus was so blissful. Everything was beautiful, perfect. States like this come and go and I relished in it while it was there...

"When you know, they know. They look at you and they know. They can't help but look at you because they know what you know radiates outwards. Truth is, what they don't know is that the reason you look as if you know...is because you gave up trying to know, long long ago. You're a light, a shining image that radiates acceptance of everything around. They see their magnificent reflection purely through you, and that lifts them up to a sacred place they rarely get to experience. Truly, that is the path I choose in this lifetime, no matter how difficult to sustain. You have to get up and go to work, do your 'job' as best you can every single day. You job is only to remain constantly jobless: empty, in the most full, overflowing way. For your emptiness is full of room. Room for them to understand vastness."
-- Lydia
A few quotes I had lyin around in my notepad:

When you affirm your own rightness in the universe, then you cooperate with others easily and automatically as a part of your own nature. You, being yourself, help others be themselves. You are not jealous of talents you do not possess, and so you can openheartedly encourage them in others. Because you recognize your own uniqueness, you will not need to dominate others, nor cringe before them.
-- Seth

The Poet's approach is not that of explanation. It is that of exclamation. He says, "Aha, aha! So here is the mystery."
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All religious people are mad. Mad because to them life is not a question, not a problem to be solved but a mystery into which one has to dissolve oneself.
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Emptiness takes nothing seriously.
-- Osho

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Yesterday I went to the beach in Tofino. I layed there and was battling with my thoughts for a couple of hours. I find that's always what happens. If I'm alone, in a quiet, peaceful surrounding, my mind takes over and I can't relax. I thought I wouldn't be able to get over it! I did a little bit of reading throughout (reading a great book by Osho) and still found I couldn't calm down. So I rested as much as I could and let everything go on and on and on. The chatter.

When I got up after about 2 hours of laying in the sun all of a sudden this huge amount of tension was released. I didn't understand it but it just happened. It's as if my constant struggle for two hours all of a sudden just went "whoooshh" and I was liberated from worry and thought! I was amazed. I felt lighter. And happier! Everything happened around me and I was no longer influenced by any of it.

I realized that every single day all I do -- without even noticing it -- is judge ... I constantly try to "change for the better" when the way that I am right now is perfect. The reason my mind keeps going is because there's a REASON to have this chatter. I figured out, I guess, that it's because I think too much on how to improve something, someone, or myself 24/7. If everything is perfect as it is, reason doesn't exist, for the only time you need to reason is because something isn't right, needs to be changed, whatever. RELAX! Let it be!! Flow! It's amazing how many times you can read this in a book or hear it from someone else and never truly understand it until it happens to you.

PS: I can't form proper sentences today.
PPS: I ain't gonna try to change that.

Sunday, August 21, 2011


Drawing is so therapeutic. I've said it before but every time I take on a really difficult drawing, some kind of commission, it blows my mind how stressed out I can get if I don't just zoom out and just take it step by step. Overthinking will NOT help you achieve what you want. I had to push through little humps of "This isn't good enough" or "How do I get this specific texture" stuff. Just do it and you can correct it if it doesn't look good! How will you know if you don't first give it a shot?

I always find drawing to be like meditation. You concentrate on this fine, tiny point. So much so that I forget what the whole picture looks like. This is also a great analogy for life itself: in our little bodies we're focused on our point of view while there are such bigger and grander things happening that are really quite beautiful, but since we insist on looking in one direction only, we can't see or feel that beauty!

Thursday, August 18, 2011


Things come to pass, they always do. I've always had a hard time accepting struggle; when I'm not enjoying myself it feels like it'll be that way forever and that makes me even more frustrated. But everything ends, begins, and ends again ... constant change. And this is the case with your emotions, your daily routines, strange situations you put yourself in -- writing an exam, doing something you dread doing, physical labor -- just know that once you're done, you can reap the rewards.

Plus, zoom out. In the grand scheme of LIFE, it was but a tiny little speck, a moment in time that barely ever existed. Only your mind makes a certain moment significant and "larger" than it truly was.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

"When you want something, all the universe conspires to help you achieve it."
"Making a decision was only the beginning of things. When someone makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had never dreamed of when he first made the decision".
- Paulo Coelho


I'm reading The Alchemist for the first time ever (yeah, about time). I wanted to know what this "international bestselling phenomenon" was all about. I can't say I like the writing style all that much, and stories kind of irritate me if they aren't written in a consecutive way, but I do love what he's trying to get at. Through little stories and insights on a boy's life you learn the way Paulo thinks about the world. I haven't read the whole thing yet so I'm trying to stay captivated so I may give you the full on review. So far, it's neat.

Monday, August 1, 2011

I am a few pages away from finishing one of the best books I've ever read, called

"The Nature of Personal Reality"
review by Kristen Fox (she describes the way this book made me feel 100%)

"If you want to understand the details of how reality creation works, this book is a MUST READ. Beliefs, expectations, thought forms, general metaphysics, psychology, infinite probabilities, the consciousness of all things - it's all there. If you love thought-provoking reads that have the capacity to turn your assumptions about physical reality upside down - read this book! Jane Roberts was a very scientifically-oriented individual with an extremely discerning mind and this channeled material is an excellent reflection of that focus.

This was the first book I read that spoke directly about reality creation and as I read it I felt like I had come home. Finally, there was something in front of me that showed me things that I had known my entire life but hadn't been able to put into words. Seth comes at reality creation from dozens of different angles and helps you put the pieces together to form a larger picture."