it’s not a crisis, but rather a part remembering, which brings me to wonder about the future and how to organize it. which step is the first best step in the right direction toward the life that I want? I am certainly encountering the people and the situations that bring up these questions. it’s been a while since I thought about it and reinvigorated the passion toward self sufficiency, independence, community and life away from the city.
a friend told me yesterday, make sure that you think of your future self. will your future self be happy with your choices? what’s your 10 year plan?
the summer has blinded me, yet there is nothing else to do but to charge head first with a slight forgetfulness of the other goals. the work is all encompassing and therefore, to be present with it and to do it well, I am choosing not to daydream too much. I have set my intentions already, I have thought about possible futures. my body knows, and the universe knows it too, so now I take steps in directions that I feel called even when they are scary. go toward the fear.
taking a week off of painting, then a week on quadra island, then a visit to my sister’s in lake cowichan, then a dance party in sooke. all the nature life, all the humans in the surrounding places. it’s all possible, isn’t it? how true is it that if you build it they will come? depending on where I step, the map illuminates previously unimagined places to take the next step. I will never know what’s beyond until I make a decision. it barely matters which one … choosing is key.
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