from before

you can’t tell me, you’ve gotta show me

but you can’t show me without letting go

you gotta show me while holding yourself

show me you love yourself so much

that it overflows into me

that you have so much to give

not because you’re avoiding yourself

show me that you love yourself so much

that wanting me is extra, that needing me

is coming from longing, not fear of losing

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are there two kinds of need?

the need coming from love,

the need coming from fear?

how do those needs differ?

needing from love builds intimacy,

needing from fear builds resistance?

sure, you’re not doing this for me

you’re doing this for you

but how do you hold yourself

amongst all of them

all of the others

the ones that aren’t me

and if you’re working on it for you

then let’s see it in the world

let’s see you changing for the world

for yourself and the world

and let the change for me

be a byproduct, an outpouring

because it doesn’t end with me

it only begins with me

are you different if I’m not looking?

do you show up for me, not for them?

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your eagerness and persistence is both

your weakness and your strength

it is what captures my mind

and alerts my heart to distance