Oh happy day!
I love days where you're HIT in the face with realization.
Now I know what I have to do. It's scary, but I know. Reading with mom totally confirms it all. I have to do some sorting through of my surroundings: let go of imperminance, useless activities, mindless actions, and more specifically let go of the people who serve no purpose in my life! I must find the strength in me that lets me do this, that lets me tell people straight up that they just aren't benefitting any positive aspect of my life anymore/yet.
Today I floated around aimlessly. I went to the Cornerstone and thought I might just read. Of course, this didn't happen, as it's the Cornerstone! Always running into friends. I had an amazing talk with an amazing person, who I actually do look up to quite a bit (she has no idea). Her being encompasses my want for becoming stronger and more persuasive of my dreams, of knowing what I want.
My new years resolution is to be more proactive. Less procrastination, more production. I've been wanting to do more art and it hasn't happened, but I know that's because I still need to find the right people. Today I ran into two (actually, kind of three). Very random, both very influencial and artistic idols of mine who've done some really great stuff around Victoria. I remember I wrote down in my journal that I wanted to find more people to do this stuff with -- there ya go, Lyds! Right in your face, you better take this opportunity.
So now what I need to do is filter. Filter the people I want around me. There are lots of great personalities, but that's all they are. It's a waste of time right now, and I need to get down to business. Make stuff!! Have a few people you want to (..need to) see once in a while, and the rest shouldn't matter. Discipline, organization and growth. Come out fresh, emerging new artist when you've done all the work. Don't worry, they'll all be there when you come out. They might see something in me that inspires them, too, which would be amazing. I'd love to inspire people.
YES, YES YES! "To say yes to one instant, is to say yes to all of eternity."