Forty-5

You gotta follow your feet. You gotta feel that inner compass, the intuition that flows with nature and knows in which direction you should be heading at all times. That pull feels amazing. Perhaps this is why we have drive to do one thing and perhaps not so much another. Our bodies know which one is useful and which is ... well, useless to our growth and overall well-being.

Forty-4

Great quote I found in an article today:

You have something in yourself that is fundamentally, basically good. It transcends the notion of good or bad. Something that is worthwhile, wholesome, and healthy exists in all of us.

About

About me from Astro.com (really accurate!):

The world of human relationship means everything to you, and the feelings of others are primary on the scale of your values. Yet you are often caught in a conflict between your need for warmth and closeness with others, and your need for privacy, space and the freedom to pursue your own interests - which often involve abstract concepts quite divorced from human reality. You have great compassion for the problems of others, and may often find yourself playing the role of the good mother or father [gotta pay for more from this point on ...]


Your sensitivity and compassion for others combines with realism and practicality about life, thus making you one of the most reliable and supportive of companions and friends. Your valuing of others and your tactful response to their needs is enhanced by common sense [and pay more from this point on ...]

Forty-3

Learn to see everything as plenty, not as not enough! Such a huge thing that's been engraved into my being my entire life. I may have money saved up but it's never enough! Oh no it's depleting, I'm going to run out! A friend of mine has left town, I don't have any more friends!

Switch it around. When you look at your bank account, no matter the amount, think to yourself "Wow, I've got plenty of money!" When you think of the people in your life, appreciate every one of them and know you've got plenty of people around you that care! Plenty of time! Plenty of space! Plenty of energy to circulate and go around!!


Memo to self!

Forty-2

Life and death are but two opposites of a whole. Appreciate death as much as you do your life, for neither would exist without both coinciding. You are inevitably perpetually feeding the beast that preys upon you -- but do not fear! For this is the cycle of life ... and death.

Forty-1

Being confined to a building -- 4 walls -- is totally mind boggling. We feel as though we're breathing in the air of only the room we're in. As though the energy we are living and experiencing in that moment is only the energy inside the four walls. But think outside the box! You're still in open space beyond those walls, are you not? Why should you feel confined at all? Do we feel confined because the ozone layer keeps us from being connected to the solar system? Or because of the particles of matter surrounding our bodies? Or even, the skin on our bodies -- is that restricting us from feeling free? There's so many levels you could take it to that four walls, in the end, is really nothing to fret. Perhaps to the mind, but when we're talking energy -- it's all the same shit anyway.

Forty

So what do you do when you start your day off badly? When you wake up on the wrong side of the bed, or you wake up just fine but the next thing you do is stub your toe on the desk, and you don't have the strength or will power to make yourself laugh through it? Are you destined to be angry or overwhelmed or stressed out or sad all day long?

I don't know what it is that makes every single day different from the next .. when you think about it, a "day" is only determined by you going to sleep and waking up. What if we never slept? How would we gauge our difference in mood, when would it "switch" over? And why is it that waking up from sleep means we have to switch our mood at all? I want to feel happy at ALL times -- so what's stopping me?

We have to keep in mind that we are the only ones who can affect our mood. But even when you're conscious of feeling shitty, you personally have no idea how to trigger that happy mood, how to get rid of that little aching pain in your heart that is carried along with you throughout the day. But sometimes we're blessed with a trigger; we see a butterfly, or someone tells you you're beautiful, or you find a $10 bill on the ground. What is it that makes these things make you see the world differently? is it because we forget how beautiful we are, how beautiful our earth is? Is it the strain of monotonous work, day after day, that is remembered on grey gloomy days?

This post is mostly made up of rhetorical questions ... but hopefully while reading this you'll wonder why you're in a bad mood right now and remember that you can change it instantly. Think of something pretty. Think back on a wicked bad-ass day and how good you felt when you were in that brighter state of mind.